i guess I should take the advice I gave to lisa on her thread and just be happy to be getting what i am getting now, maybe if I do keep my mouth shut as i have said i would but obviously haven't h will realize even more what he truly has here and know that what he thought he had with her is futile and meaningless, i doubt my h will call her if i leave him alone about it, she may not call him but actually i hope she does then maybe h will see what she is a clingy woman who just wants an escape from her own unhappy m. perhaps she will show her true colors to him and start talking bad about me. h is doing me no favor by "trying" to be with me that i have to keep in mind, i am worth it and h will soon realize that actaully on many levels he does "ll is awesome" after all, as long as ll can keep her mouth shut about what he has done to her and let go of the past. h is currently angry at me for stranding him with the kids yesterday, i just didn't have it in me to come home after mass, h eventually did leave to go where I do not know, i assume to watch the rest of the days games with his new side kick and then off to his appartment to be alone, he did call at 10 to say goodnight and i think my detached tone got to him, still have not heard from him this am but he plans to come over after work. i will just be here, I have reading to do, if he wants to talk to me or spend time with me that will be his call, i have a life that doesn't revolve around him. LL
