maybe I would have been inclined to believe my h about their just being friends if I knew about the friendship but I did not it was hidden from me until he was seen by someone who knew me and only then did he tell about the friendship, also knowing that my h is not or was not in the habit of keeping friends did I doubt it, so maybe they were "just friends" maybe he just liked her, but he has said enough to me to let me know that even if they were just friends, it was not an appropriate friendship and NOT just because they are man and woman but because of the secretness and the lies and also because of the ammount of time spent together both before and after I knew of the friendship, hell my h admitted to wanting to be physical with her and being in love with her, that he went back to being friends with her because he was seeking out that feeling again. so maybe they didn't get sexual but I am pretty sure they were comforting eachother emotionally and at some point probably reached the carressing stage, after all she is a married woman and he is a married man. what ever their r was doesn't matter it turned into something else, she knows his feelings for her hell she even said to me "you are a stronger person than me, it is hard enough when a man has had an a to work on the m but to know your h is "in love" with someone else, that's gotta be hard" so whatever they were they were no longer friends at some point. she doesn't matter in my world anymore, now I have to deal with a man who is or was (who knows as he didn't come here last night) wanting to try to want to be with me but is in love with someone else.
I am tired. tired. tired. I cannot live in h's world. I want a h and he is only wanting to "try" when he is ready then I will deal with it, right now, he has to do his own thing and I mine. maybe it would be easier if I was in love with another myself. to bad that I know the difference between "in love" and love and love is what i want. LL
