thanks for the words lisa, my d was just 6 months old when h left and 3 months old when "friendship" with ow was disclosed, that is when the lies started (well the outright lies started) now six months after walking out the door and telling me it was over that he didn't want to be my h, he is trying, I don't know how to feel, I do believe i love my h, but he is not the man I thought him to be. I had been living a lie for a long time and not knowing it, then I lived a lie and knew it, then stopped living it and let h go off to live his sorry life and plan to be with someone else's sorry exuse for a wife. now h wants to be my h and I don't really know how i feel about him. I am enjoying being persued but is that enough, does that make up for all the lies, all the decete, all the mistreatment and neglect???? i got appologies and now I get exuses as to why this happend, in my eyes there are reasons but it is not exusable, forgivable yes. I am scared to get comfortable but don't want to live my life walking on eggshells. I don't know how to feel but numb. LL
