ya know, LL, you keep saying this, in some form or another. It was once every few days, then every day, and now today at least 3 times on your 2 different treads...
Quote: and no it is not speculation, h does honeslty believe he is in love with her, that they have a r, and a good one, that he never had that with me, never felt that way with me, but owes it to me to at least try.
I'm curious, when was the last time he told you this? Unless he repeats it to you half as frequently as you post it her, it seems to me that you are totally out of control on this, you are totally obsessed with his. You must let go of this statement, stop reveling and wallowing in the pain it causes you. If not, all you will have is this blinding pain.
Now, as to your current childcare situation, I find it interesting that your recent posts seem to consider your current sitch somewhat different than "separated", even though you still live apart. I would even call it a sign ofreal progress in your PMA. But, truly, you are still separated, so there is no real reason that you should expect that the child arrangements should change. Sundays were his day, Sundays are still his day. Don't get angry about his wanting to do something else, just point out that it's his responsibility. As for Friday, you arranged with him to have the kids, he agreed. Not your responsibility, it's his. Sure you can help him out and try to find someone, but it's his agreement, his responsibility. Stop getting angry and taking the responsibility back. Stop taking it personally.
