LL I feel some of your pain, especially about trust. I think you read my post, our r are similar, my h says they are friends. We had a serious talk last week about him feeling like he needs to leave, told me again that all along he had been telling me she meant nothing to him but a friend and if I knew her whole sitch, I would understand.He promised her he would not tell me, so he won't. How do I really trust him, if he would show signs of trying to work on our m, that would help. Sounds like your h is trying and you have to slowly regain trust.I guess there have been little signs this week that i am not taking as good things, he has come home earlier then usual, does not rush right off after day job to get out to part time church work, so I have to hold on to these small things. I just wish he would touch me, hug me anything that says maybe we will be ok. Have a great day Sue