z, this past friday night, I was upset about the fact that she was still calling him and he was being ok with her calling, so friday when he came over, (mind you, he didn't ASK to spend time with me) I decided it was best that i go out for me for a while, so when he got here, I did just that, grabbed my darts, went and saw a movie, then stopped by a local dive shot some darts, was asked to play with another and then play another team. left at about 11pm, when I got to the car h had called and left a message on the cell just to let me know he was watching the game and was fading that i could wake him if I wanted to and that he hoped i was having fun. h never asked where i was or who i was with. I couldn't keep it in so sat night while we were out at the party I asked him if he cared he said if i wanted him to know i'd tell him so i did, he smiled at the fact that i went out and did all that by myself. tonight i went to my book club meeting, h said he probably wouldn't wait up assuming i'd be very late, I told him he could if he wanted to that i probably wouldn't be that late, h is asleep on the couch, don't know if that means he was trying to wait up or if he just fell asleep there but he is here non the less and that is further along than we were a few months back. LL
