I have started my college classes and already have LOTS of homework so my time is a bit limited here. It feels good to be doing things that are positive and all about me. I have my first appt with the personal trainer today and I'm excited! I might not be so excited tomorrow when my whole body hurts. I'm also going to check out the local separated/divorce support group tomorrow night. I'll let you know how that goes. Between all of my activities and my D7's activities, I'm a very busy girl which I think is good for me right now. Being busy helps me to stay focused on myself and not my H. Speaking of H, he came by last night for a visit and was in a horrible mood. He was complaining about work and all his other usual junk and I had to work very hard not to get sucked into his drama. It's hard for me to see how unhappy he gets and not want to "help" him. I know there is nothing I can do for him right now. I wanted to yell at him.....IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY! But, I just smiled and said "I'm sorry you are having a hard time." Just last week he was spending lots of money on extras for himself and last night he was complaining about money. I still depend on him financially so that worries me a bit. I went in another room and did some homework while he played with D7. I could hear him getting frustrated with a game they were playing but I did not rush in and try to help him like I might have done in the past. So I just have to keep reminding myself to detach, detach, detach.
That's my story for today Shelly
Me: 34
H: 37
1 child
Married 10 yrs (together 13)
Bomb: Aug 25th "I'm not in love w/ you anymore"
H walked out: Aug 30th
