I cannot take this ALIEN anymore!!!

[Lizarina]

Wow - I cannot tell you how much I truly appreciated your post.

It's ok to get to a point where you are ready to move on.

I think I am.

Most people around here don't want to say things like this out loud. But it's not sacriligous to suggest that there be a limit to our pain and emptiness.

You're so right. The last time I saw him, I told him (in a very non-emotional way) that if he decides he wants to work on things some day, I'm always here. That is, unless I'm with someone else. I told him that I want him to know that and that I will never say it again to him. So he knows where I stand. That ball is in his court. As much as I don't want this to be over, our old relationship is over. We may have a new one some day, but this one is dead and gone. I have to take what he says at face value - he doesn't want me right now. I'm 34 years old and I don't want to wait around for him forever. I'm not closing myself off to the possibility of getting back together with him some day, but I'm not going to put all my eggs in that basket. I deserve to be happy and being in a relationship is something I want. Of course, the only way to get to that point is to get divorced.

Anyway, I truly appreciate your response. I hate to say this, but sometimes I feel that with my situation being what it is, maybe the best thing for me is to not be on these boards. Maybe I just need to move on and stop tethering myself to the situation. I think I'm ready now.