Thanks running , this is indeed a journey, an uphill journey alright.

After another talk w/h last night. He pretty much told me that at some degree he is unable, for now, to give me the support I want/need, that what I see is what I get for now, that this is all he has to give me for now. Another I must learn, he's lost lots of himself during the whirlwind of MLC and the botched A.

And even though I am very aware of my needyness and I try so hard not to let it show (and i thought i was doing a good at it) he texted me that by being so needy I make things worse. It was like a slap to actually have him "saying it", it is true, but it still hurt. I was almost tempted to do my aloof routine, but I knew this was just not the way to go anymore.

He is still piecing himself, so I must focus on working on detaching TL style, and free myself and leave him alone.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.