I can't thank you enough for your insights. I am getting to that place now too...where I feel peaceful and really happy inside, regardless of the circumstances of my M.
Dealing with the hurt is a conscious battle, and the better I get at identifying and turning my back on the path those thoughts wish to take me, the stronger and more in-control of everything else I become.
In a lot of ways, I am grateful for this entire experience--I never would have asked for it, but I've learned more from it than any other, and I fully intend to use the lessons learned for the rest of my life.
