As always, thanks for your continued support and advice. I am so appreciative.

Today was not such a good day. I didn't do as well as I have been and will work on doing better tomorrow. I'm still optimistic that all is going to end up fine and that it is just a matter of time and am just having such a hard time being patient. I just want the hurt to end... As soon as he finally comes back home, I know I will feel so much better. There will still be so much work that needs to be done, and I'm so ready for that, but I guess I'll at least know that we're working on it and not feel so scared that he's not home yet.

We are going to a business dinner with some friends of ours on Saturday night, so hopefully that will be a good opportunity for me to be "alluring" and let him talk. I'm looking forward to it and hope it goes well.

He did initiate hugging me again today and told me we were still on schedule and that everything was all right without me asking, so that was nice to have him do that two days in a row. I just didn't do so good the rest of the day after that... Still lots of work to do.

Anyway, I'll continue to keep you posted on progress. Five weeks from Friday until Hawaii! I pray that that is the longest I may have to wait... Although it seems like an eternity from now, I suppose if I have to wait for five weeks to get my marriage back on track, that is a whole lot better than it could be...

Thanks again for your continued encouragement and strength.