Just wanted to check in and say thank you for the continued feedback. I AM listening and am working hard on your advice.
Today I did even better! I went to the gym this morning and dressed up nice again. I didn't call him! He called me around 9am to ask a business question, and we were very cordial to one another. I ran into him at the apartments briefly this afternoon. We talked about a few business items and some plans we have for this weekend. Then he left, and HE initiated a hug to me (I was going to just let him go without saying anything)! AND he said something to the effect of "everything is fine, and we're still on schedule." That was the very FIRST time he has ever been the one to initiate telling me that! I was thrilled inside, but on the outside just thanked him and let him go.
He didn't call me the rest of the day, and I DIDN'T CALL HIM! I went to see some friends at the hospital tonight who just had a baby today and had a nice time. I did drive by the apartments to see if he had left on my way to the hospital, which I shouldn't have done. I wasn't going to stop or anything - I just wanted to know if he was there. Maybe I hoped that if he was that that was why he hadn't called me - because he was still working. At any rate, since he wasn't there, I just hoped in my mind that maybe he was talking to her tonight or at least maybe starting to talk to her. But I didn't call, didn't drive by her house, just went to the hospital.
So more progress today I think! He still isn't home, and I realize that, AND I know I'm doing a better job, and I feel better about that. I pray that my efforts to back off will help bring him back home soon. I'm going to keep working hard on what you're telling me to do and will keep you posted. It's very, very hard, but I know it's what I must do.
Thank you for your continued encouragement and advice. I'll let you know how things go tomorrow!
