Thanks, Whatsis. I completely understand and agree with everything you said. I have been willing to take some blame since the beginning, and I forgave him immediately, as I realize the errors in my ways. I have worked hard to make this my wake-up call and to turn it into a positive. I know we had problems in our marriage (that we BOTH played a part in), and my firm belief is that this was unfortunately the wake-up call we needed to make our marriage into something extraordinary. While it absolutely kills me that this happened, I pray that one day we will look back on this in the midst of an amazing marriage and be thankful for this second chance. I have already accepted my portion of the blame for this. My point was that I don't feel like it was ALL my fault, that's all.
Well, he did not call me back to go to dinner last night, which I wasn't surprised at. I resisted the urge to call him and let it go for the night (baby step for me). I got up this morning and went to the gym and still have not called him yet today (another baby step). I dressed in some sexy undergarments and some sleek black clothes today, put my hair up (haven't done that in a long while), painted my nails, put on some nice smelling lotion, and am ready for the day! I have an appointment to meet someone at our apartments in a few hours. My husband is there, so I will use my appointment as an excuse just to say hi. I will NOT call him before then... I can wait a couple of hours... (baby steps). I'll take our conversation as it comes and will work on being cool and nonchalant and happy. I'll let you know how it goes...
