H has told me in no uncertain terms that he is not going to end R with OW. That he will continue as things are.. We just started seeing MC and he wants to see if there is anything that shows him that we might still work. It is crazy. I know we can go no where with our R if he is right in the middle of this A. I do still love him and C said that I have to be stronger now than I've ever been. I'm still contemplating D. I'm a friggin' mess......... I'm trying to just love my D3 because I feel her future is going to be so much sadder than her life has been so far. She adores her Daddy.
Although H had shown much remorse when he told me, he is back to being downright beligerant about the A. He is totally off his rocker. He is about to lose everything... I do know that OW has been putting the pressure on him. I saw a text that said that there is no way that THEY will work if he still loves me..
How do I cope with this day to day?? H says let's just take one day at a time. Easy for him to say when he has his cake and is eating it, too.
