I am choosing to change my attitude toward a possible renewed relationship with my H starting NOW! C session is tommorrow. He says he wants to begin to see if we can possibly have the type of marriage he needs. He is also saying that he will not give up OW until he feels that we have something to work with...Ok.. not the best scenario but ok.. at least it's honest. This A has been going on for only 3 months; first it was physical only.. then emotional. So emotionally - they have been in synch for only about 2 months as they both sorted through their "trashed marriages" together.
I've done a lot of soul searching in the days since finding out about this second A. I have not been happy either with our marriage. I felt that he was not meeting my needs emotionally and therefore, I refused to meet his. I guess we were both in places where an affair was possible; but, I would simply never go there..
I guess I am just trying to calm down and not let the panic I really feel override what I need to do..I pray for strength...
