Hi Lonely - sorry you are feeling so stressed - its the
sh!ts eh?

I wish I could wave the magic wand and tell you things will disappear instantly. Unfortunately, that's not the case. It takes time - I know, no one likes to hear that, but its the truth.

Yesterday I was feeling pretty good - for the most part. But, it was Sunday, I had contact (in one way or the other) with H all day. Today was another story.

I started a new job today and there is no telephone where I work to be able to call him. Needless to say - STRESS BIG TIME. Mondays were also his day with OW (being his day off) so, MORE STRESS. I know he didn't go to see her today (because she lives 3 hours from where we live and there is no way he would have had time, from when I left home and got back and besides, he met me for lunch - ) but that doesn't mean he didn't call her right? But, I am trying to believe that he didn't when he tells me that. He is (I think) trying to be honest (which obviously in the past has been a HUGE fault of his - no kidding!!!) and telling me when he feels the "pull" to call her - so I guess that's a good thing. He also reaffirms how sorry he is for putting me through "turmoil" which is more reassurance - which I need BIG TIME for sure.

All in all, I guess today wasn't too bad and I have to keep thinking positive, which is not as easy as it sounds

Take care

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
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Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)