I just went through a blow up that involved police. I called them, I felt threatened by her rage and she wouldn't stop, plus our D was in the house watching all this. I'm also working on my anger issues (unsuccessfully at this time), but you are 100% in saying change takes time. I'm pretty much where your at right now, and trying to mend whatever I can before she leaves on her trip. I'm going to try to apologize for my actions (even though it was for self protection and my daughter's), but I wouldn't be getting any warm responses just yet. It's up to you to talk apologies or not. If you want to wait it out, just be happy around her so she won't think you're still angry.
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~