The past week or so I have been have such positive things going on with my WAW and D situation. She has actually been talking and going from that she wants straight out of our R to confused and not knowing what she wants. The OM has even started to go away until a couple of days ago. I do belive she started to call it off with him and he was persistant and she finally gave in. Tonight I found a pic on the internet of them together of her holding him. I have been fairly good at keeping my jeolousy under control but lost it tonight and said things that was not right and was a big mistake. Now tonight she stated that she just wants me to go away, she doesn't even want to think about us, and leave her alone. Of course she was angry at the time but I guess I am back to square one with the communication and waiting on her to come to me. Sucks because we was talking so good and looking so positive. I know this OM isn't a big factor...she is only using him as a deteriant from her feelings of what is going on but still that jeolousy is eating at me. I think one of the hardest things about DBing is staying focoused on what you are doing and not letting your thoughts/emotions take control.
Even though tonight was very negative and a BIG slide-back after I let out all my rage I had I did feel better. Felt a somewhat release, but when I see how far the slide-back took me back I'll probably won't feel that dang good. Guess thats the way the cookie crumbles.
After our tidbit tonight I emailed her and told her that I couldn't do this any more and that I was done. Told her that if she needed me I would be here but was done trying I am setting her free.
Don't know if that is a good game plan to get her back or not but I can't take her with him and her being one way one minute and the total opposite the next. Someone on here stated that WAW usually back off after they feel they are getting to close...Maybe that is what she is doing....guess the only game plan I can do now is to let her have complete control and see what happens.
