He's back but I am restless now

[cat03]

I can see why are hurting, because I've been there, but I do need you to remember something "hatefulness begets hatefulness". Think very well about the decisions you make, don't do anything rash just because you have a "feeling". Question every feeling that comes to your head, just because you feel something doesn't make it true, don't be a slave of your emotions.

And I see no reason why you can't to the C by yourself, the way you are feeling I'd def encourage you go, it's almost like you are entering a MLC. Regardless, you need help dealing w/your pain and right now your H isnt' equiped to help you, barely any WAS who come back are.

I want you to read the responses I got when I found out my H's A was not a mere EA of weeks but a PA of months, I hurt so much back then and the responses from my friends here helped me heal:
healing old wounds