If he knew what he wanted, he would show you. He doesn't. That is no help to those stuck in limbo h*ll. I'm sorry. There is little anyone can do but share their concern.
You can do something for yourself. Try very hard not to focus too long on the dark concerns. It is natural to hurt and you deserve some time to mourn on occasion. But, don't let it own you. Control the amount of time you focus on the pain, then let it go till tomorrow. Give yourself the gift of peace and admit that it hurt yesterday, and unfortunately, it may still hurt tomorrow. You don't have to embrace the hurt all day in between. Let it go as quickly as you can. There will be enough left over for later.
Then do something for yourself. Cook. Walk. Dance. Soak in a tub. Create an artistic expresion of who you are inside, not who this is making you. He is focusing on trying to find out what is wrong with him. Let him do his work, and you do yours, while the Lord does his.
