Just getting started peicing it back together 2

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My W seems to be wanting to push things faster along in our sitch. She wants me to stay with her every night. I would like to stay every night except my lawyer has not called me and told me the d is off. I will not move my stuff back until I hear that it is at least on hold. It is quite a hastle to pack close every day so I can stay at our home. I told her that I was not staying tonight or friday night because we are going on a date saturday and I think that it would make date a little more exciting for both of us. I would like to move back home, but I am affraid that would be pushing things too fast. About a month ago she was acting like she wanted me back and the next thing I knew she was pushing me away again. She has come and gone a few times but this time does seem different. She is wearing her wedding ring and she seems to be more on level ground for a longer period than the times before. She told me she has tried to get ahold of her lawyer. Before when I pushed her to stop the D she backed way off from me. Now I just listen to her tell me she is trying to get ahold of her lawyer and I don't coment on it. I have detached. I love her and I want to stay married to her, but she is going to have to stop the D on her own if she wants to be married to me.
On another note, my kids are showing me alot of love now that this R is moving in the right direction. I have shown my w that I can take care of the kids without her and I believe this was an important step in the process of getting her to fall in love with me again. I think somewhere deep down in my wife she wondered what would happen to her children if something happend to her. I believe this was part of what lead her to her EA with the other guy. He was D and taking care of 2 daughters every other weekend. She met him at her sisters on one of the weekends that he had his daughters and I beleave she was attracted to a guy that took on a parenting role which is something I was not able to show her because we were together with our kids and I let her do the care giving to them because I thought she wanted that. I have always been the father who would step in when she asked me to. I would keep my mouth shut until she would ask me to help because she would put me on the back burner when they were with us.