Just getting started peicing it back together 2

[jersting]

Replying to OldFool, SOTS, GH, and toughlover.
You all are right on. except the fact that this started for me in Feb. 06 and has snowballed until Aug. when we seperated. I have to admit I have doubts once in a while of why I am trying so hard to hold my marriage together. I think after this weekend, I have realized, I can't hold this together if she doesn't want me to. I can live my life the way it is right now and see what the end result turns out to be. I am not going to go look for a new bride or even another woman for companionship. I would not do that even if I knew for sure I was getting a d. I went away last weekend and left my phone at home. W tried to call 3or4 times and didn't leave messages. I checked my messages over the weekend to make sure there was nothing wrong because we have 2 children. When she left no messages, I did not know she tried to call until I got home and seen the missed calls. I did talk to her sunday night and told her I felt like I was walking away from something I should not be walking away from. After I said this her attitude toward me has been a little different from the last couple weeks. She seems to not be as cold and she is calling me a couple times a day to see how I am doing. I told her the reason I left my phone was because I needed a break to get my mind straight. I have been nice to her and I let her know that I care about her but other than that I haven't said much. Mostly validating and listening. So to answer you guys, I love my W and I want to keep my marriage, I just need to hear from other people that I am doing the right thing. All my friends and family tell me that there is no use and I need to move on. I don't know how much more moving on I can do at this point. I live by myself and go to work everyday, make my own dinner, wash my clothes, fix up my place a little every day and I seem to happy with what I have. What more moving on is there? Thanks for all of your advice and I will be posting more as things change for me. Good luck to you all and know that I include all of you in my prayers nightly.