Old fool and Stoic are 100% right on this one Jerst. Please, you have to find some way to live your life and stop trying to manage hers.
Also, I don't remember, do you/did you have a persoanl C, working just with you? If not, that can be a GREAT place to start, and especially great for you right now.
Please think about it.
Ditto.
You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. -- Inigo Montoya, 'The Princess Bride'