I also read a bit from yours and thanks for your thoughts. The idea of a bomb #2 seems overwhelming to me now as I sit and try to heal from ours, almost 2 yrs. now.
Did you feel like you were just waiting for it to happen again as I am? You are right, at this point, my H seems to be trying only when it is "right for him". These moods of his!!!
Somehow I feel deep down, that I can stand by him with any problem, be in MLC, depression, whatever it may be--as long as it doesn't involve OW again. His silence and pulling away on and off is what is keeping me on edge.
So much of my own issue, is to get this OW out of my head. I am a great acting "as if" most of the time, but deep in my inner self I am feeling watchful. NOt wanting ever to be in that spot again.
I have made myself a promise, that I WON'T be part of a marriage again if it involves dishonesty, mistrust ( OW). I tell myself I have grown over the last few years to respect myself if he can't. Did you feel the same? Is that why I am living fearful of my own boundary with myself?
Yes, I continue with my own C, and also am joining a group therapy this week, a women's group, just to meet and talk with others for support. Lots of resolutions for me--to continue to be a better me, for me!!!
thanks for your strength and caring words((((((())))))
