I agree with Lil. You are in a bad, vulnerable place. Don't compound the issues by continuing to flog the dead horse of this R. First, start taking care of yourself and getting some networking and job hunting going. Go to the library and find some good resume and jobhunting materials. Second, kiss gf goodbye and wish her a very happy life somewhere with someone. Third, find a hobby that is cheap and lets you meet others. Fourth, meet your spiritual needs in some way - church, getting out in nature, reading religious texts, mediatation, whatever. Finally, if you find you are not rebounding well you may need to see your family doc for an anti-depressant. Situational depression is very common when so much is going on. It doesn't mean that you will need meds for life but maybe just the short term.
