I know this hurts, sink... I'm so sorry you're going through this. However, look at the big picture... look at a year from now, five years, ten, twenty... what kind of life to you picture for yourself? I know you want this immediate pain to go away, but you're going to be stuck with it for a while. I would suggest you continue to see the counselor on your own even after the breakup. The more you understand, see into, and forgive yourself, the less likely you are to unconsciously attract a woman with the same issues. Many congratulations to you for addressing this painful issue before the wedding. Many who have passed through the SSM community went ahead with the wedding in spite of major red flags, thinking that somehow things would straightedn themselves out after the wedding. You're very wise to deal with this before.
