thanks for all the feedback again. i just want to do the right thing. it really hurts that she took off the ring. i love her so much. but i will take this pain in the short term if it means less pain in the long term. i don't want to throw this away. but i will not compromise. i will work with the therapist - go as long as it takes with no sex to get us 'back on track'. but i can't fake excitement about the wedding when my mind is more on our sex issues and my music career finally taking off. i want to marry her - but deida seems right. that is my inner strength. i need her inspiration - and i'm not going to lie to myself and imagine sex once or twice will be enough for me. that's not a relationship. it's just not.
