off to counseling tomorrow. over christmas, she asked me why i didn't seem excited about the wedding (we've been engaged one year now)... and i told her it was because i'm always thinking about our sex issues. and although i love her, i have to admit that's what i look forward to the most in our marriage - and she was really hurt by that. i'm trying to get the message across that sex is vital to me and to us, and we can't move on without addressing it. so now she's jaded (second 'failed' engagement, if this falls through) and doesn't think we'll get married.
but she's going tomorrow. and this is my last shot at us. i know how i feel right after we have sex. i think she is wonderful and would be a wonderful mom. she's WAY more put together than me (i'm a musician) in practical ways... and we both look at each other with amazement. this is my last shot. but you guys are all right... this needs to be corrected in a very real sense. or we're done. and hope can't last much longer. i need counseling and i need a good fck.
