thank you guys SO much for your feedback and advice. what a godsend this board is. i have no one i can talk to... thank you for being so blunt and realistic. first of all, i LOVE that bride joke. let's hope it's not true for everyone... but that's how it seems for sure. thank you hairdog for grabbing my hand and looking me in the face and telling me how it is. that hit me pretty hard. lilli - the lack of desire is NOT a turn on to me. i like to have sex and go to sleep - not stay up till 3am like i'm coked up on drugs because my libido is through the roof. or stay up till 3am having sex too... you guys are right about the mystery thing. i still believe in love and romance - even the ugly parts of it - but i also know that relationships change. the celebrities and financial commitment thing made a lot of sense to me to. i think about leaving sometimes, and the first thought is...'what about the rent and the lease' - but that is peanuts compared to marriage. we've agreed we need this counselor before we move forward with the wedding plans. i wonder if she will be as blunt as you guys are. i will certainly be as honest. i have to be. but like i said, ultimately, it's up to me to endure the pain of letting go. it's been over a year since the last BJ. i hang my head in shame for what a weak person i am for waiting this long.
