i didn't think we'd make it this far. i wonder if i should be proud of myself for making this happen - or ashamed that i didn't get out earlier. i am only engaged, not married. and my fiance has said that 'i ruined our sex life' by giving her a hard time about it (it's infrequency) early on. she said she doesn't respond to pressure. yada yada yada... you've heard it all before. the same excuses of a LD spouse/girlfriend. it's all in michelle's book because she's heard it all before. the underlying issues will be exposed in therapy... but ultimately it's the same old story. will she ever become as 'sexed' as i need in a spouse ultimately? no. will things get better or worse over time? worse, obviously. i am 28 and at the peak of my life - i am a sex machine! young, attractive, and sex is always on my mind. she's 33 and insecure about her body (even though she's gorgeous), and full of other issues too. therapy will bring out my issues as well, of course. but i'm talking about the result.... i mean, i have no intention of sabotaging this without giving it a chance. but if i believe in a miracle, what i'll get is a huge let down. that is the story that i read time and time again on this board. and it's sad as hell.
