Thoughts for today: W told me she didn't want to traumatize the kids by leaving yet she seems OK with allowing me to traumatize the kids if I choose to leave. If she really cared about not traumatizing this kids, wouldn't she do everything possible to make sure this m really was over? Wouldn't she work on this first? No, instead she is basically interested in herself, not the kids. Again, she doesn't want to be the bad guy. That has nothing to do with caring about the kids, that is ME ME ME! Btw, I know this thought has absolutely no value in keeping up my PMA or probably anything else! Now my next thought: W is always reading things that talk about following the heart. The OP used to always send her little cards and thoughts with this kind of crap on it, "your heart knows what is best". Well, to my knowledge the heart is an organ that pumps blood, WTF can it possibly know? The heart is but another term for doing something regardless of the thought processes that tell you it is wrong! Go with the heart is just another term for ME ME ME! So that is my last useless, PMA reducing thought for today! I think it's called anger, but hey, I'm just going with my heart here! OK, enough. Back to doing something constructive now.
