Muddle, your point is worth thinking about. Often my tone here is one I reserve for here. It may give the wrong impression of how I view my W and our R. There are many good things in our R and how I connect with her, again, is worthy of some consideration. Much of the time she doesn't allow connection. That rare laugh we shared at BR dance last night caught me off guard, it felt really nice...we were connected but she pushes that away most of the time. I don't push re connecting with her too much cuz it gets discouraging and I think I've basically stopped right now. I am pleasant and approachable but I'm kind of sick of getting brushed aside, it's frustrating, so I don't give her the opportunity much. When you try to share something in your life and this person grunts and walks away, well, that says "I'm not interested in your life". As 1210 says this is why I have decided to see the SF counsellor because there may be things I can do that I am just overlooking. I also get angry when I see the person I love driving herself into depression, she knows that is what is happening but doing it anyway. She does nothing about it except let OP soothe her emotional needs, that's apparently her job! So, I guess, I let it out here. Anyway, next week is my first session and we'll see how it goes. Oh 1210, Auntie is Chinese too, surprise!
