I am so hurt

[BeingMe]

Don't just rely on someone returning your call. Phone them back again, and see if you can get someone on the line today. Be proactive in helping yourself. I know it's very hard to overcome the messages left by your H (in your head), but it can be done. My first M was abusive - emotionally and physically, but I got over it, and so can you. My XH, BTW, was a born-again Christian - as I discovered, it was by mouth only, and not in spirit.

Remember that you are a child of God, and He listens when we pray with real intent, and ask Him for help. But, we also have to actively help ourselves. Otherwise, how can we learn the things we need to learn in this life. We are here to be tested, so keep telling yourself that you are worthwhile, you are strong, because you are the spiritual child of God, who made you for a very special purpose (and only you can discover this purpose), and it was not to be beaten down, and treated like garbage by your H (who, obviously, has his own issues to work on, because no-one treats another human being that way, unless they need to make sure that they look smaller than him, so he probably has no self-esteem to speak of, or any pride, or empathy - if he gives the impression that he has, then he's white-knuckling it, and hoping no-one notices the real him).

Take care!