I haven't read your threads, but just wanted to say, yes please listen to Nicola, and take care of yourself foremost.
I also learned the hard way, that you can't take care of anyone else, unless you take care of yourself first.
Keeping a healthy diet will also help with Depression, along with getting outside and being in the sunlight more often. That is why a lot of people have seasonal depression, we have less sunlight during the Winter.
Also, during these times that we are changing ourselves, we cannot expect anything from our H's. I would also recommend not asking him for anything, as you've already discovered he won't help you, and you must become strong enough to not care what he does, or what he is thinking and so on. Don't let him have control of your happiness. You are the one who makes you happy, not him.
God has a plan for you, and if I read right, that you are a christian? As a christian, you must have faith that God knows the best way for you, and to trust in him. Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose."
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
