Nicola those two last replies from you are right correct. One thing that helps me a lot is to not go by the house. But, my son lives there has no transportation. Even though I tell him that I don't want to go over there. I still pick him up or drop him off. And I see and it hurts. I am waiting for a therapist to return a call to set up meetings. I know that I need help. I spent over 20 years in that situation. Need to work on self esteem and for stronger me. I give too much.
I have let go of some of my guilt feelings. I know now that my leaving was justified. That is one thing that I have healed from. Need to work on rest.
When you are with an abusive person even if it is emotional they have day by day killed your spirit.
Also, I laugh more. That was a deep desire of mine.
I will be ok. Most of my days I am alright. Actually when I post on here is when I really feel bad.
