Yes, I have been depressed, and I know that you are, too. You MUST do something about that, and it doesn't involve getting your husband back. It is about YOU and getting the help YOU need. I know you probably think I sound harsh and unsympathetic. The truth is, I am frustrated. You are NOT taking care of youself, and until you do, you cannot work on your marriage.
Ashyah, is this not the man who told you that you were not good enough even to eat dog $hit, when you had no money? Do you really think that having contact with him and working so hard at saving your M is helping you?
I know that you are a Christian and you believe that marriage is forever. I'm not saying go out and file for D. But this has been going on for a long time now. Do you even want to be with this man? Look at what you've written just here:
Quote: he said yes then didn't show up.
Quote: him money to fix it he spent the money.
Quote: What do you think of that?
Not that I think you really want to know, but I (and others who have posted to you) think that it's horrible behaviour and you're better of w/o him.
He is not with you right now. Whether or not you get back together is in God's hands. Now is your chance to be on your own and heal. Have you seen a doctor about your depression? Are you on meds? Are they working? Are you getting any professional counselling? Church organizations will often do that for free or at a low cost.
Please, do yourself a big favour and just forget about your husband for now. You are more important.
~ Nicola
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