Wondering if I'm piecing or Last Resort

[kirby]

Good to hear from you again TL,
Glad to hear your Christmas was good. I just finished posting about how I think I'm starting to like my pain too much and getting too addicted to this site. I'll take your and my own advise and get busy with it.

Imagine how it would feel to live the rest of your life on pins and needles wondering if she's happy, if she's cheating or considering it, and worrying over it every day, letting it eat at you from the inside out. You don't want that, not really. You want to be free from that.

I was just thinking about this. How could I stay married to her if I feel for the rest of my life that any mistake I make she might leave me. I can't live that way. She can't live in the R the way it was.

Yes, I am stalking her emotionally. I'll stop.

thanks again for giving advise TL. Happy New Year.