Acting silly, yelling with her mouth full so that she was spitting...when I pointed out to her that she was spitting, she moved closer so that her spitting would land on me.
Yuck.
Couldn't type her ebay password in...took her 5 tries.
Stumbling around, couldn't keep her balance.
She's not normally like that.
I found myself trying to control her, telling her what to do. Our roles reversed. Me the controlling mommy, her the child.
I don't like it when she tries to control me.
But yet, when her baviour became unacceptable, I started trying to be controlling.
I DON'T like seeing that controlling side of myself. I don't respect it. Don't want it.
So, I lashed out and told her to be responsible and clean up after herself.
Next time that happens and I feel myself reverting to an Army commander barking orders...I need to do something different.
I begin barking orders because 1) I'm afraid she'll hurt herself 2) I don't understand why she can't perform a simple task that she does everyday (normally) took me awhile to realize she was drunk...she wasn't slurring her words at all. 3) Perhaps I don't like having such an erratic change in my environment and so out of fear, try to take control, to control my fear.
So, what can I do next time?
1) Remove myself from the situation, say I need a time out. 2) I don't know...other than use Lily's duct tape.
