I agree with MrsH. I think it is normal that you are feeling this way. I know you are afraid of being hurt again, and rightfully so. That is why it is so important to remain true to yourself and to keep your expectations at zero. It will probably not be an easy road, but neither is the road you have been traveling and you've made it so far. You have grown a lot since you came to the board and have gotten stronger. Don't give that up. Take it slowly with your H.
Sorry to hear about your mom, I know she has been struggling with this for a while. I will say a prayer for you and your family.
You have had so many really emotional events in your life for such a long time and have shown just how strong you are.
