man, what a week! i am so tired from lack of sleep...still so much to sort out in my head. i should be elated that h is wanting to work at a reconciliation;but, in truth, i have lots of questions....such as why now? what changed? i had finally come to terms that h & i were going to go our separate ways...was looking forward to a new future w/ lots of promise. had even made plans for a trip out 0f town this weekend. funny how things change.
i wish i could feel the excitement that i would have felt a month or so ago. h is saying all the right things and acts as if he really loves me & wants to work things out. i'm just not sure i'm ready to open my heart again....so scared of getting hurt, again. so many people have cautioned me about the possibility that he hasn't changed...i guess it's a matter of taking one day at a time. he's talking the talk but can he walk the walk.
