With a username like that, I had to peek in you know?
First off I gotta say I'm hardly ever here anymore (which is a good thing). I think you have a pretty good grasp on what's going on with you and your R with your H. I also like your voice here.
This place is like feast or famine. The newcomers forum can move too swiftly sometimes and these specialty forums can inch along too slowly. I suggest to you that you may want to go to the newcomers forum and peek in on threads that catch your attention and jump in there til you find people with whom you click. Like making friends when you're the new kid in school. I think doing that really made my experience here so worthwhile.
I started an update thread in the hopefulness forum and JJ was kind enough to link up most of my old threads. You're welcome to read thru or not. Are there some similarities? Maybe basics. I think you may have your mind more together than I did.
I love that you're doing volunteer work now. That's pretty much a Michele approved technique. Your H may very well be fine with being away from you or not. Probably in the way you two learned to interact it could be expected. All I can say is try reading JJ (JamesJohn's) thread in newcomers about going dark - he has a green username. I think as you start really getting your game plan in motion and fill up your life, your H will probably realize that he actually misses you.
So good luck. Don't know when I'll stop back by but hang in there. Remember, just because people are afraid to type for whatever reason, it doesn't mean they're not reading and learning. We have a lot of lurkers. Take care!
