if you were REALLY calling him based on the flimsy, manipulative thing she said, you might have wound up REALLY embarrassed.
I was really calling him. And you're absolutely right that I was lucky she called. I had every intention of going straight for the jugular. And I could have been really embarrassed. I cannot tell you how out of character this was for me. I'm Mr. Benefit of the Doubt. Insanity
She cares about me. She's wounded, scared, and mad. She's on the defensive, pulling out all the stops, trying everything she can think of to make the pain stop, and yet she's apologizing to me more than ever, and on occasion showing me a lot of respect.
And despite all this crap, my respect for her is growing. Although I find myself regularly saying "I can do without this" I only use it to keep my self respect in the midst of all this. I promised this girl I won't give up on her, and I won't.
This "oh" (no rising inflection response) and the "can I call you back" is more helpful than you know. I need to reherse them.
I think you're absolutely right about her hating herself for her talk, and hating me for it too. I'd be doing both of us a favor for stopping it.
Lillieperl, thank you.
P.S. If I'm going to be called an instrument, I prefer Steinway. (mine's back at the house)
