After cooling off a bit, I wanted to come back and post that I know that I won't be happy with myself if I give up on my relationship. I'll always wonder how things would have turned out if I had stayed patient.
I've gone back to doing what works. That and focusing on myself again, is I think the best I can do.
Only time will answer my questions about what the future holds for my relationship.
But I can focus on doing more of what works and keeping my PMA up and continue working on myself to make myself into the person I will love.
