I hadn't heard back from H since that phone call last sunday. I had the feeling/fear that he was just asking me out on an outing to dinner/movie to butter me up so that when he asked for email detailing how much he owes on debt and how much he's paid...that I'd comply. Paronoid? I'm not sure.
Well, thurs I emailed him to tell him that I needed to take a rain-check on meeting as some unexpected expenses had come up and wiped out the money I had saved for our meeting.
This a) shows that I've taken responsibility of my financial situation
b) is a 180 because in the past I'd drop everything for him, overcome whatever problems for him...basically put him before myself because I didn't care about anything except being with him.
and c) I asked in the email for him to respond by next wed or I'd go ahead and make other plans...and that's a 180 because it shows I'm not waiting around for him but living my life.
So..this is a good thing for me to have done...but I keep getting anxious now. I'm hoping that the result will be that he'll see that I'm standing up for myself and he'll respect me more.
But I'm worried that since he only asked for meeting (I don't want to call it a date cause he's not called it that) when I called that he's waiting for me to contact him and taking a rest in the backseat leaving me driving..which would just be more of the same for us.
I hope this makes some sense!
Words of reassurance would be helpful...as well as advice. Anyone care to offer any?
