Jeff, you don't need to be sorry for being human. We don't get it right all the time. That's ok. Now if you go out and buy gold earrings and write a note and do it all again for Valentines Day....
BBA said "WCW is saying that you are proclaiming your intent to "stand", and that I don't get that, and her implication is that I'm not a "stander". I don't know how she makes that judgment about me, but that's beside the point." Misinterpretation of what I said. Not implying and not judging, I don't know you or your story well enough to do that. What I was saying is to read up on what/who Jeff was referring to. For our convenience, Piglet came here and gave a Readers Digest version of what has happened with her. Thanks Sheila!
When I saw Jeff start a new thread in this forum, I knew he was in bad spot with his emotional/mental health. Does that mean MLC? or that he slumped like we all do. Look at the title of this forum. You're nowhere close to here Jeff, the physical state of your M is not Divorced but not Done. Don't get off the horse, it ain't dead yet. It might not work quite like Piglet, or kml, or grasshopper, or Sven, or Xue, or even AmyC and FIB and whatisis and the others who have been waiting - but it's not Done.
How's that go Jeff? = Strength and Honor.
Keep your chin up, eyes on the horizon.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.