Am I piecing? I am sooooo confused

[Heywyre]

Yes Kirby - we have both agreed that is where we are heading. On the other hand, we have both also said "if it doesn't work out down the road".

There is no guarantee in life. All we know at this point is that we are trying to salvage what is left and build from there. If we decide we can't live together, we have already confirmed we still want to be in each other's life - so that is a positive in my books. Win/Win

H is a great guy - he just went off the track (twice ) but there are too many GOOD things about him for me to just toss him to the wayside and not give it another go.

Him beginning to read some of the books I have brought home from the library have made a HUGE difference - especially because the two he has read are written by women that have gone through the same thing, although they do have quotes in there from their mates. I think this has given H a whole different outlook from my point of view, and he is starting to express much more remorse and compassion.

He used to be the most caring, compassionate and unbelieveable S you could ever imagine. And, I know when I read some of the other postings on here I feel I don't have anything to complain about. However, you can only compare what's missing, with what you remember you used to have. He was an incredible man, and I want that man back in my life. He is showing me (slowing but surely) that he is willing to try and resurrect that guy.

For instance, he used to buy me flowers quite often (usually for no reason - i.e. because I started a new job or something crazy like that). But, that hasn't happened for as long as I can remember now (probably several years).

When I got home today from work, there was a huge bouquet of flowers sitting on the table. I just about cried and thanked him profusely. He said "I haven't done that for you in a long while and I felt you deserved it" - am I a happy camper? You bet I am