Thanks for the reply and encouragement. I know I should be more pleased than I am right now that my H is making the effort. However, I guess because this is the second A it is harder to get optimistic about it.
I am at a place right now that I know I can forgive him and, for the most part, I think I already have. That doesn't mean that I will EVER forget what he did to me but it doesn't mean that I have to harbour the anger either. What is done is done. I can't change that. But, at the same time, I don't have to live in this "state" either for the rest of my life. I choose to move forward instead of backwards - for MY OWN sanity, no one else's
Quote: I think I've got a ways to go yet before it's real
I know how you feel - as much as I have forgiven (I think) I know it will be a long while before there's a whole day that goes by without me thinking about it. Because I have gone through this before though, at least I know the what to expect in the progress department. Also, we are doing things a whole heck of a lot differently than last time. Which gives me encouragement that it will be successful this time around.
Once again, thanks for your support - I need all the help I can get
Hope your sitch improves too - it sure is a bummer living this way isn't it?
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
