Am I piecing? I am sooooo confused

[kirby]

Wow Heywyre,
It might sound and feel like a bad day to you, but it sounded like a good day to me.
I know how the pain feels. It's frightening to think that it doesn't go away for a long time, if ever. But I already know it does get easier to deal with. I guess it pops up now and again, and feels just as bad as ever, but those times become fewer and farther between.
But I'm envious of your sitch. Your H is working on your M/R. He comforted you. He said he was sorry. He considered how you would feel and he is going to change his behavior to make you feel better. I can't wait until (or if) my W and I get to that point.
The pain is sure real, as is the fear of being hurt again. But Monday is over.
Sorry you had a tough day. Maybe today you can take some comfort from the good that came out of it. Hang in there. Keep doing what you know is right. What do you think, did H earn a thank you for his efforts?

I had a glass of wine with an ex-coworker and still current friend last night. It was good to get support and affection from someone. She told me her story. Her partner cheated on her. She made it through. She told me that forgiveness really is a gift you give yourself. It allows you to live your life again. She said she would never forget what happened, but she has forgiven and choses to trust. If her partner cheats again, she said it will hurt, but won't crush her, and she knows she can handle it. Of course, she said she'd leave if it happens again, but with no bitterness. Maybe some sadness over what could have been. Also, she said that even though she said she forgave, and said it early and often, she really hadn't until one day she woke up and just realized that she had really forgiven. I say I've forgiven my W. I believe it, but I think I've got a ways to go yet before it's real. What about you?

Today will be a good day. Maybe great.