Yes, I think when H says "if we aren't together down the road" or "if we can't live together", I truly do believe it is his way of dealing with the fear that it might happen and its his protection mechanism kicking in to (once again) protect him from the hurt that might be coming.
I guess I just have to hang in there and keep reassuring him. He has said on occasion (before and after I knew about the A's) "I don't know why you stay with me after all I've done to hurt you, all the others did" - however, even those relationships in his past were not good, he didn't have A with any of them. My response to that statement has always been "because I love you" - hopefully it will sink in soon
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
