Am I piecing? I am sooooo confused

[Heywyre]

Update - January 6/07

Went to see the C yesterday with H. It went well and the C told us we were both handling the situation "very maturely" - which is always a nice boost

We talked about the trust issue I am dealing with and H acknowledged the emotions I was going through

One of the things H has been pressing me about is my new job that starts Monday. In the past, just after the bomb, I was insistent that he meet me for lunch that day (being that Mondays are his day off and he used to use them to go see OW - some 3 hours drive to her house - each way!!). He got defensive (at the time) and said he couldn't live in "a bubble". I went off the deep end saying it was okay to drive 6 hours, spend time with OW, every single week for at least 3-4 months (since we had moved to another city) - not to mention the time he spent with her when we lived where she does, but he couldn't be bothered driving half an hour to have lunch with me, on his day off? Me? The woman he is supposed to love and want to reconcile with?

Needless to say, it was not a productive discussion and we left it for the C to go over. Unfortunately (like always it seems) we never did get to actually addressing that particular topic (sheesh the time goes fast in that office)

Anyway, when we got home H asked if I had come to any conclusions about Monday. Once again, I got on the defensive (but this time didn't let H see that side) and said I didn't know. That I was having a difficult time with that decision because one day I feel ok, the next I don't. H said "well I know what I'm going to do". My heart raced at the thought of him saying "too bad, deal with it" kind of thing. I got my courage up and asked him what his thoughts were about it. His reply?

"You are starting a new job Monday, and you need a good foundation for it. I think it would be a good idea for me to meet you for lunch to give you that foundation you need. I think its the least I can do."



Was I pleased? You bet I was!!